Part of me feels like a wimp because it's not that bad- or really bad at all- but another part of me is unhappy and really struggling because it feels like there's just not enough of me! Part of me feels like there aren't enough hours in the day to get all of my schoolwork done, workout, get all of my chores, other responsibilities and commitments done, be a friend, a sibling, a daughter, spend real time with God, and just live. Christmas is coming and I love Christmas, but how the heck am I going to get everybody's gifts done?
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I am an optimist (believe it or not) and I think there's a lesson in at least a lot of stuff, so what's the lesson in this?
I think part of it is that I have a choice.. The choice and the power to choose how I spend this one short life. There's only twenty-four hours today and I am not promised tomorrow.. So how am I going to spend this one day?
Another is my attitude when faced with difficulty. Life feels difficult and crazy right now, but again, I am faced with the choice.
One day. Today.
Do I want to spend it annoyed, pushing people away, because time, time, time! Or do I want to love them and listen to them and enjoy them? Do I want to spend it procrastinating because I dread how much time History takes me each day and I worry I am going to miss something and fail, or am I going to take initiative, do, and practice the same for all the other things I'm so skilled at procrastinating in? Do I want to spend it dreading, or do I want to send it living?
We were asked a question in youth group on Wednesday... Do we spend at least 8 hours a week on personal recreation? Uh, yeah. How does that compare to how many hours we spend in prayer?
Yeah.
Maybe its not that there aren't enough hours in a day so much as just a poor way of spending them.
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My sweet little sister walked up and gave me this when I was feeling rather cranky the other day.. Hahaha!
It'll be okay... I'm okay. Just learning.
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